says “you are beautiful in the skin you’re in,” that was God’s way of saying, “I got you,” and I turned it down. When I look at my fight and my tears and my pain all the years behind me, where my big lips and my dark skin and my hair and everything was an omen… now God has glorified it and made it for the beautification of the world to see, you say no. How stupid could you be?
EBONY: You’ve never really clammed up when talking about your struggles over the years. Has that been easy to be honest in this industry? Or has it gotten you in trouble?
AS: It’s very difficult, because nobody wants to air their dirty laundry. In my case, I came from a hip-hop success story to a songwriter that ended up getting a second chance with another group, ended up falling in love with a superstar sex symbol. And within that pivotal moment of my career, it’s almost like I lost myself because the relationship overshadowed Angie Stone, the singer, the songwriter, the producer. It reduced me to just being a woman with a baby from a superstar.
People wanted to know—because now, as a solo star, I’m a huge, overweight woman, I’m over 200 pounds—how I was in love and having the love of a sex symbol and no one understood why. I wanted to write a book entitled Life in the Shadows of a Sex Symbol, and before I could get it going, I was attacked by the media, going, “Oh she shouldn’t talk about him.” The book was not about him. The sex symbol was the industry. And they wouldn’t allow that. I think now would be an appropriate time to create a book, but I was literally cut down on every corner, and that was my way to tell my story. I still think the world needs to hear that story because it’s an incredible story, one that I would never want to relive again.
EBONY: You sound very confident now. How did you get to that place?
AS: I think what got me back here, when I look at my children and I look at my life and I look at God continuously showing me favor, who am I and why am I complaining? Because not one time did He let me go and let me fall so far that I could not redeem myself. I haven’t seen any sign of sarcoidosis in over eight, nine years. I’m off that medication, lost weight, gone back to almost high school size.
And as evident as I am talking to you, God is one day at a time giving me my life back. That is the result of who you’re seeing. You’re meeting Angie without all of that garbage in the dumpster. It has long been disintegrated. You’re meeting an Angie who has moved on in her love life, Angie who has moved on as a mother, as a grandmother, as a friend, as a teacher, as a role model, as someone who just absolutely loves the Lord.
And at the end of the day, it does not make me perfect. Far from it. But we will not walk in perfection unless we practice how to get rid of a lot of the old habits. Part of who I’ve become is a result of what I came through, and coming through all of the fire with my whole armor of God on is what has saved my life. It’s almost as if the world saw me at my worst and God said, “now, let’s show them you at your best.”
EBONY: Any new Angie Stone music on the way?
AS: Absolutely! I’m getting ready to go in the studio with Calvin Richardson and do a duets album. I also want to release something impromptu that I’m doing on my own called Me and the Men in My Life, because I’ve done quite a few duets with young men that the world needs to hear.