INTERVIEW: Khloe Kardashian Ain't Trying to Be Black
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write down my ovulation days and I made it too stressful, for Lamar and I both. We both were like, ‘This isn’t fun.’ Lamar and I definitely want kids. We’re definitely not doing anything to stop the process right now, but we’re not being structured about it. We’re just putting it in God’s hands and when it happens it’ll happen. I’m only 27. I feel like we got married so fast, so people just expect us to have a baby so fast.

EBONY.com: When we first met you on reality TV, you were the "Party Girl Kardashian." Now you’re the voice of reason. Is it that marriage has changed you?

KK: I’m someone who’s really fun. I’m a free spirit. I love to laugh. Life is so serious and it’s short, so let’s have fun while we can. When my father did pass away, I took it really hard and my outlet was partying or being kind of self destructive … really careless. It’s almost therapy, watching the shows and not liking the way I look or how I act. I do notice that with age, I am actually growing up and maturing, but I do think Lamar has a big hand in that.

EBONY.com: How much longer do you think you can live your life on reality TV?

KK: For now, we love what we do and people still want to watch us and it’s fun for us. But if it ever doesn’t get fun, then obviously we’ll stop. I stopped doing the Miami show because I wanted to focus on my marriage and make Lamar my priority. And the Khloe and Lamar show I love, but I don’t know how many more seasons I’m gonna do of that. It puts too much pressure … my husband already has one full-time job and with filming so many hours a day, I don’t know if I just want to commit him to that. Like, I could film and do whatever all day long and I love it, I think it’s fun. I think it’s like having expensive, documented home videos. But I don’t know how much I want to put the pressure on him.

EBONY.com: Your family is on a supermarket tabloid every week; how do you cope?

KK: I try to not pay it much attention. I don’t get Google Alerts.  I don’t think that’s healthy. I know what I’m doing, so I don’t need to get a Google Alert about it. I think it could be kind of toxic, and you could also almost start believing your own hype and you get a little full of yourself almost. I like to keep my circle small. I like to make my husband my number one priority. I like to indulge in work. There definitely are rumors that sting. Especially when they’re talking about your family and your sisters and when you know their real hearts, you want to defend them all the time, but we can’t. People like to talk about us, bad or good, and that’s just the way it is. I know I’m a good person. I know the people who love me know the real me and for every one hater out there, I have 100 people who love me.