the series now?
CL: Funny you say that. I’m on my way to a set right now. Today’s my last day.
EBONY: And then what do you do after you’re done shooting? Do you have a martini and go see a therapist?
CL: With this job, you don’t have to wait until you’re off work to get a martini; they hand ‘em to ya! But I definitely need to go and sit on somebody’s beach and recharge.
EBONY: What would make you happiest?
CL: I just want to be fulfilled. I want to find my level of peace and I don’t expect the world to follow, I don’t expect things to be easy, but I want to be a little more gentler with the way I deal with things and a little more understanding of people. It makes me a calmer person. So I’m just looking for my happiness. That’s it. I want to just take the time out, stop letting people dictate my moods with their behavior, learning to be more in control of what I can control, which is myself. I can’t expect people to feel the way I do and respect things the way I do and move the way I do, and I have to learn to live with that and accept it and still find the happiness and the good in other people. We all can’t be the same or else this world would be a boring place. And I just … I think I put a lot of pressure on people to be the way I am and I get disappointed a lot. I just have to depend on how I move a little more. I’ll be a happier person for it.
EBONY: Are you hopeful that people will see a different Chrissy in this new series?
CL: Let’s see, you know? I’m not in the editing room. I can’t be any more honest than that. I have to wait and see. I am an executive producer on the show. But they feel like if they give me too much information, it takes away the raw emotion and the raw response. Reality TV is not easy.
EBONY: And people think that it is …
CL: It’s hard when it’s your truth. If you’re coming on there as a character, you can get through it. You can walk away and say, ‘OK, job well done. I got a check, I’ve got this character out there that I can run with. Then I can come home and be me and check that at the door.’ But when you give of yourself and everything you do is real, you never get to put it down.