While Aubrey “Drake” Graham is riding high off success, the trappings of it may have matured the 25-year-old to tone down his excessive ways. In a cover story interview with GQ, the Canadian superstar reveals a conflicted soul in regards to the opposite sex. “I’m trying to find the same feelings that I had for women when I had very little going on, which is tough,” Drake says to the men’s lifestyle magazine. “When I was in my mom’s house, I had nowhere to go, no real obligations. It’s really difficult for me to find something that makes me feel small.”

His “girls-around-the-world” mentality was, admittedly, a spell for the former TV star turned rap behemoth. “There’s just a time where it was like, just getting p****. Where I was in that sort of ‘I’m young, I’m going to… just be a rapper and have my fun.'” But being single, sexy, and free has reached its mark, as Drake seems to want more, saying “I just need something else. The seconds after a man reaches climax, that’s like the realest moment of your life. If I don’t want you next to me in that fifteen, twenty seconds, then there’s something wrong.”

Is Drake truly opening up and being introspective, or is he just, to put it bluntly, “running game?”