NeNe Leakes is back on our TV screens with Season 11 of Real Housewives of Atlanta. While she previously participated in reality show shenanigans with her cast mates, the wife, mom and ‘glam ma’ is focused on husband, Gregg Leakes’, health this time around, admitting to US Weekly that they’ve had a rough time with his cancer diagnosis.

“Honestly, it’s a really tough time. Like, it’s really hard, you know? I never knew that cancer could come into our lives and change it the way that it has. It’s been really hard for me, it really has,” the boutique owner told the publication. “I mean, it’s been like a roller coaster. There are days where we have good days and Gregg has good days, then we have bad days and, you know, I feel alone, he feels alone. Because, you know, he sleeps downstairs, I sleep upstairs, out of all the years we’ve ever been together, we’ve never done that before.”

The pair now sleep in separate bedrooms, as Gregg fears his exposure to radiation could affect his wife.

“It really has changed us. He’s downstairs, I’m upstairs. He feels alone, I feel alone. I feel like the day they told me that he had cancer, I feel like I lost my husband,” NeNe admitted. “I prayed so many nights just please give me back my husband because I do not have a partner right now. And you realize all the things that your partner really did, like, he, I don’t really know who has my cable.  I mean, seriously, I don’t even know who the damn yard people are. …  And those are the kind of the things that Gregg really took care of, so now I’m walking around like, ‘Okay, now wait. I don’t want nothing to go off up in here, where do you pay this at? Where does this go?’”

The Georgia peach is going through it, but thanks good friends Cynthia Bailey and Marlo Hampton for being a shoulder to cry on. She also reveals that the stress of the situation has led her to consider all of her options, including walking away.

“Yeah, I have Cynthia and Marlo, and I definitely have talked to, and you know, listen, I never knew that I would need a support system, but let me tell you, I need a f—king support system because so many people look at me and they say, ‘Oh, she’s so strong. She got this, you got this NeNe. I mean, God wouldn’t have put it on you guys if they knew you guys were strong, they knew you could handle it. Gregg has the perfect life, they can handle this,’” NeNe told Us Weekly. “I’m like, ‘No, no, no, no bitch. I’m weak. Please come over here and support me.’ We’re not that strong. There’s a lot of things happening over here. There’s been days when I felt like I can’t do this anymore. Like I’m gonna have to leave Gregg, I cannot be with him anymore. Like, I’ve had every thought, because it’s been so difficult, and he’s not been the easiest patient in the world, so I’ve just felt everything. I need a support system, trust me on that.”

Season 11 of Real Housewives of Atlanta airs Sundays at 8 p.m. ET on Bravo.