Rapper Nicki Minaj shared two clips from her forthcoming documentary Queen Tuesday night. She opened up about the domestic violence she witnessed as a child and revealed being in an abusive relationship with an unnamed partner from her past.

“I remember when my mother would let my father be violent with her,” Minaj said. “She always brings up this story that as a little girl, I would stand in front of my mother.”

The Queens, New York native believes that trying to protect her mother may have influenced her tough-girl persona. “That’s why maybe some people would describe me as abrasive or b***hy or whatever, because I vowed from that age, no man would ever abuse me, call out my name, treat me like that,” she said. “And then all of a sudden, that was my life.”

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In the second part of the snippet, Minaj became choked up continuing the story of her abuse and how it stopped her from making music. “Who was I going to inspire? When I had nothing in me to give,” the “Chun-Li” rapper uttered. “I let one human being make me so low that I didn’t even remember who I was. I was scared to get in the studio. I didn’t believe in myself.”

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Minaj claimed that she began working on her most recent project Queen after removing herself from the toxic relationship. As a result of the time frame, many fans speculated her abuser was Philly rapper Meek Mill since she revealed their relationship was “toxic” in a September interview with Ellen DeGeneres.

Mill took to Instagram after the teaser clips dropped and posted a meme about a person projecting his or her issues and playing the victim as a part of an “aggressive campaign” to “gain the sympathy of their fan club.” He did not directly address the claims Minaj made.

There is no release date scheduled for the Queen documentary.

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