Will Smith and Jada Pinkett Smith are one of the most transparent couples in Hollywood. In a clip from Jada’s Facebook talk show, Red Table Talk, Will is brought to tears while discussing a rough patch between him and his wife of 20 years, believing they were “failing miserably” at marriage.

Speaking to their daughter, Willow, Will says, “There was a period of time when Mommy woke up and cried for 45 days straight. That was the worst I’ve felt in our marriage. I was failing miserably.”

Jada’s Facebook series has addressed several private family issues within the Smith household, including co-parenting with Will’s first wife, Sheree Fletcher. The popular episode featured the two moms gushing over their children and having a meaningful conversation about co-parenting. Jada even apologized for flirting with the actor before he and Fletcher officially called it quits.

The wife and mom has also discussed her battle with alopecia, describing the first time she noticed “handfuls of hair” while in the shower, before going on to declare the “terrifying” moment as the reason she cut her tresses off. “It was one of those times in my life where I was literally shaking with fear,” the actress said. “That’s why I cut my hair and continued to cut it.”

She also admitted that medical tests to determine the cause of her alopecia have been inconclusive, but overall, she believes it’s a response to stress. Although she could have chosen to be devastated, Jada said she wouldn’t trade losing something else to maintain her formerly thick head of hair. “The higher power takes so much from people … and, by golly, if the higher power wants to take your hair . . . that’s it?” she said. “What else would you lose? What else would you put on the table for God to take? Take the hair.”

Red Table Talk features Jada; her mother, Adrienne Banfield-Norris; and her daughter, Willow, as they dissect a different life topic every week.