Canadian singer Keshia Chante shared an emotional tribute to her former fiancé Ray Emery on Monday, after his untimely passing on July 15.

According to TMZ, Emery, a former NHL goalie, apparently drowned when he was reportedly swimming at the Royal Hamilton Yacht Club in Ontario. Authorities found his body near the docks after he failed to emerge from a dive with a friend.

Chante and Emery dated for seven years starting in June 2010. The former couple was engaged to wed but called off the nuptials after allegations of domestic abuse.

The singer posted a series of photos from more joyous times in their relationship, expressing her shock at the 35-year-old’s death.

“Raymond Robert Emery (Sept 28 1982-July 15 2018) my heart is heavy. i am at a loss. distraught. obliterated,” she began her post. “The love of my life, best friend, the man i was going to marry. U loved me with every fibre of ur being even though it overwhelmed me at times. U took care of me, protected me. So incredibly passionate, loving & affectionate. My cuddle bear. That smile.. the way u looked at me. U always made sure I knew how much u loved me. Even at the very end.”

She continued to reflect on the issues they experienced and reflected on regret about ending the union. “U  had demons u were fighting, ones that u felt u were too invincible to confront the way I wanted u to. God, I wish u would have, I wish I didn’t need to walk away,” she wrote. “Sometimes we fought but we fought for each other more than anything. Thick & thin. U taught me so much.”

Chante closed out her post speaking on how grateful she is to have known the late hockey player. Read her post in full below.

Raymond Robert Emery (Sept 28 1982-July 15 2018) my heart is heavy. i am at a loss. distraught. obliterated. The love of my life, best friend, the man i was going to marry. U loved me with every fibre of ur being even though it overwhelmed me at times. U took care of me, protected me. So incredibly passionate, loving & affectionate. My cuddle bear. That smile.. the way u looked at me. U always made sure I knew how much u loved me. Even at the very end. Intelligent, hilarious, entertaining, giving, charismatic, a leader, family-oriented, a fierce competitor, good hearted, determined. U always amazed me. A hip disease where they said u wouldn’t walk again. I watched u go from bandages, to walking, to skating, to playing pro hockey again then to winning a Stanley Cup like a King. A superhero I called u. Unfortunately my baby, u believed u were invincible in every way. U had demons u were fighting, ones that u felt u were too invincible to confront the way I wanted u to. God, I wish u would have, I wish I didn’t need to walk away. Many nights I stayed awake worried about u not coming home. my biggest fear. ur lifestyle catching up with u. today is now the worst day of my life. The day u would leave this earth. 35 years is too young my love but God, did u ever live ur life to the fullest. U brought so many along with u, took care of many, loved to share, loved to laugh, a great story teller. Literally the life of any party. 7 years together & so many incredible adventures & memories I will hold onto forever. We lived in 6 cities & went through the good, bad & the ugly together. Sometimes we fought but we fought for each other more than anything. Thick & thin. U taught me so much. U gave me all of u & I’m so grateful to have had u in my life. No one knew u the way I did & it was an honor that u let me in that way. It was an honor that u asked me to marry u. We were inseparable, attached, a bond so rare. My heart is completely broken. Big Fella, I love u always. My heart is with the Emery Family & everyone who loved him so prolifically. We will get through this together.

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