Most in America have been glued to their television sets on Monday nights for ABC’s The Bachelorette.
And though Rachel Lindsay—the show’s first Black bachelorette—initially said her journey for love is “no different” than past contestants regardless of her race, it appears she is changing her tune.
After a two-week hiatus, a new episode of the show returned Monday night, and it was nothing short of drama.
In addition to some of the contestants engaging in a messy confrontation—a proven strategy for reality TV—Lindsay had a breakdown that hinted toward her acknowledging that being Black does, in fact, make things different for the show this time around.
“The pressures that I feel being a Black woman and what that is … I don’t want to talk about it,” she said tearfully during one of the episode’s interviews. “I get pressured from so many different ways being in this position, and I did not want to get into all of this tonight.”
Rachel’s breakdown was prompted when Lee (who came into question after a series of racist tweets were found on his Twitter profile) interrupted Rachel’s one-on-one time with Kenny. At this point, the other male contestants were starting to notice a trend in his behavior.
Dean mentioned that Lee seemed to be only instigating a ruckus with Eric and Kenny, who are both African-American.
“The only people that I’ve seen Lee pick fights with have been not the people that he’s used to seeing on a daily basis, from a cultural perspective. You know exactly what I mean when I say that,” said Dean, according to PEOPLE. “The longer Lee sticks around, the more everyone will become aware of his intolerance.”
The incident caused Rachel to cut the scheduled cocktail party short and go straight to the show’s traditional Rose ceremony.
“I already know what people are going to say about me and judge me for the decisions that I’m making,” she added. “I’m going to be the one that has to deal with that, and nobody else. And that’s a lot.”
Watch the scene unfold courtesy of TMZ below.