Imagine finding out via a televised interview that your partner has moved on. That’s exactly what happened to Mel B and Eddie Murphy, according to her upcoming memoir, Brutally Honest.

In excerpts from the biography obtained by The Sun, Mel details her relationship with the actor and why things came to a screeching halt during her pregnancy, revealing that they met during a dinner party.

“Eddie is old-fashioned,” Mel revealed. “He was constantly telling me to slow down. It was like poetry, every touch, every kiss, every sense was out of this world. We were completely besotted with each other.”

After months of living in bliss, Murphy asked Mel’s mother for her daughter’s hand in marriage, with Mel designing her own custom Cartier engagement ring. Unfortunately, things took a turn for the worse when she became pregnant with their daughter, Angel Iris. The Spice Girl felt as if she and Eddie should’ve moved out of his large compound full of family members and staff, while the comic disagreed, setting off a series of arguments between them. Mel eventually gave Murphy an ultimatum, flying back to England and ignoring his phone calls.

“I told Eddie, ‘I need a break for a few days. I need time to think.’ ‘Are you insane?’ he said. ‘What do you need to think about?’”

On a flight returning to the states, Mel learned that Murphy told to a television reporter he moved on and would be requesting a pregnancy test from the singer.

“He said, ‘Well, you left me.’ He sounded cold. I explained I hadn’t, then said, ‘I’m going to have to leave you now as this is what you’ve done to me’. I was pregnant. Dumped in public and made to look like a complete and utter slut and gold digger. I wasn’t prepared for that tidal wave of vitriol crashing over me. I still can’t forget being heavily pregnant with Angel and dropping Phoenix to school and a man driving past yelling ‘Whore!’ at me in front of all those LA mums.”

Despite the drama that transpired between them, Mel still considers the father of nine her true love, despite going on to marry Stephen Belafonte.

“I‘d been madly in love with Eddie and I lost him. Eddie was and still is the love of my life. He’s a genuinely decent man. It’s like a love story where we both have different versions of why it ended.”