Congregants at Emanuel AME Church will have to repair more than their torn hearts: The church they call home is riddled with bullets, termites, and decay. After Dylann Roof allegedly killed nine parishioners here in the study room, some church members say they can never return there. Roof reportedly reloaded five times, spraying so many bullets that they struck the very body of the church. Large squares were cut out around bullet holes in paneling by the FBI for ballistics testing. Even so, the floors are pockmarked with bullets, according to church trustee William Dudley Gregorie. While there have been discussions about completely renovating the study room, no decisions have been made.

Redoing that room is the least of the church’s troubles, though. Gregorie said the church would need to spend “at least” $3 million to return it to its former glory.