R&B singer Nivea is back with new music and a new game plan, making her re-introduction to the masses on BET’s new docuseries Finding.

In the episode, the Atlanta songstress shares the highs and lows of pursuing her career while raising four children, co-parenting with Lil Wayne and The Dream, and the sacrifices she has made in the name of family.

In an interview with the M+M+M+ Show, the “Okay” singer takes it a bit further, opening up about everything from her bedroom antics to her past hard drug usage, something she’s proudly put behind her.

“I’m a be honest. I did everything late,” she told hosts Mr. Mecc and Krystal Lavenne. “I didn’t smoke weed until 2010 after I stopped breastfeeding my youngest son. The pill thing I can’t do. I drink though. I had to stop that. Brown liquor—I’m a whiskey girl —has sugar in it and it makes you freakin’ fatter. I had to stop that. But yeah, I like to drink. I smoke weed here and there. Never no needles, no crack. I’ve done coke. But no pills. That’s it.”

Diving deeper into her cocaine addiction, the southern sweetheart revealed that the drug had a different purpose in her life than it does for most.

“My experience with cocaine, that wasn’t something I felt public with where people want to party. It didn’t do none of that for me. It was more of a mental thing. I had a different reaction than most people. I wanted to be alone. It was a personal drug. I wanted to write, play Sudoku, it put me in my head.”

Her children, London, Christian, Navy and Neal, were her main reasons to quit. She also feared following in her parent’s footsteps.

“I come from an addicted family; both of my parents were on crack,” she shared. “My mom got off and my dad struggled over the years, and recently, over the past year, went to rehab, but that was the last 30 years of my life. The struggle is real. I was real caught up with the cocaine situation. It was pretty bad.

“I pulled myself up out of it, though. In the midst though, I knew that was something I was allowing to happen, which was dangerous and reckless, but I knew I was going to come out of it somehow. Even though sometimes it got tough, and I was like, ‘Damn.’ I talked to Dream about it. I was about to give the kids up, which I think helped me. Because without them, I would have died … I can’t live without all of them. I need them for air.”

Listen to the full M+M+M+ Show podcast below.